@AngelModder
I know I'm just a stranger, but I don't think you're a bad person at all. It sounds like you've been through so much, and all that can put a strain on anyone's mental state.
And I can tell people here care about ya. Stress gets to everyone, and depression sucks. I'm sure we all (or at least most of us) completely understand.
I know I'm mostly a lurker, and I've never actually talked to you before, but I was worried when you went radio silent for a while but I am glad to see a post from you. And I do hope you don't fade away completely, and log in to keep in touch just so we don't go out of our minds with worry for ya. ?